Hi again....
You people may or may not be surprised after reading this post but i really am tired of being so much fragile everyday with so much struggle for bread and butter and that too on a monthly basis with a limited exposure...
Most of the times i think that i shall give up this struggle and should find some better options in other cities...Two and a half years back i came to this city of dreams to find some better options and so far life (including health) has not been too much supportive...
I always used to think that it was a very good and timely decision to leave Indore, where i was earning a mere 8k a month...But now sometimes, i regret the decision..After losing around 15 kgs and most of my dreams, for which i am responsible enough since i never tried to achieve those big dreams...Never gave myself a chance....And now complaining with my self...
Well..Its not like i am not in a better position from where i have started...A very good job and package with one of the leading MNC Banks....Weekend offs...Supportive family and some very close friends...There are so many things and people to cheer about....There is so much to achieve...
But still i am in a dilemma...Shall I give up this daily struggle...Since its taking on my health....Every day seems to be almost 12 hours long struggle to survive...Every day i ask this question to my self...Why am i earning for???? Just because i have to lead a good life post my marriage and provide every best comfort possible to my wife??? Just because my friends and colleagues are earning more or less than me??? Just because i have to create a social status in the so called "Society"....There are so many things, which remains unanswered....
Who will care after you die??? I guess nobody...There would be 13 days of tears and emotional shock and then life will be back on track...Thats what we are earning and living for?? Who cares even if you are earning 50k a month...Who cares if you have a very good sense of humor????
Yah..M alone...Sitting 1000 miles away from my dear ones...Missing the joy of life...Is money and growth everything for us??? Its been almost 12 years since i am staying away from my family....Yah i miss them...I miss every moment spent with them ...Every second of Care, Every Minute of Affection, Every Hour of Protection and Every Day of Guidance...I miss everything...
Well...Need to think more on my future....And the question remains the same...Shall I give up??
Prasoon
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hey
i think this is the dileema of evrybody's life and funda is that dont think so much , live life as it comes and enjoy it . you are thinking so much and screwing your today. I think u live each and every day with full heart & soul.
Aparna
Yar prasoon, fisrt of all let me congratulate you, maine kabhi nahi socha tha ki tu is tarah bhi sochta hoga i've seen you as a cool dude who take life as it comes....very good
now let me try and help you out from that dilemma....yar it's up to you ki tum kya sochte ho.....prasoon main bhi usi dorahe par khada tha kuch dino pehle tak jaha aaj tu khada hai...maine toh decide kiya hai ki...kal kisi ne nahi dekha hum sab sirf us ki hope mein jite hai....we are earning for tommorow but ek baat bata do you know ki mera kal ane wala hai ya nahi or any body for that matter....isliye maine aaj ko chuna and i've moved to.....you know that aur aisi baat nahi hai ki yeh chote shahar future nahi dete yar yeh bhi toh us kal ki doud main shamil hai haan thode peeche zarror hai par agar tum aur hum yaha hai toh hum ise bhi usi mukaam par le ja sakte hai....aur sath hi zindagi bhi jee sakte hai....and it'a not a matter of giving any thing up...its a matter of choosing the right thing at the right time...
I second to the opinion posted by aparna.
The only difference is that its hard to follow... Sometimes you feel lonely... isolated... frustrated eventhough you have good frnds and colleagues around.
Decision has to be yours... think for sometime about it and if you feel that getting to another city is better DO THAT ! the only pointer is DO NOT REGRET your decision of leaving this city... Spiritualism is good but this is a materialistic world... both the philosophies have to be balanced...
Very well depicted...
Dr.Martin Luther King jr. once said in his speech " The ultimate measure of a man is not wher he stands in moments of comfert & convenience, but wher he stands at times of challenge and controversy!" I have alwaz seen u being grounded in the toughest situatn that too wid wid a smile.....n i like that!
This is so true..Readin wat u simply wrote made me think if this is ur perception towards ur life, thn wat wud b my perception after wen i reach up to ur age?
No doubt Indore is a better option than Mumbai to live life lavishly n njoy all the benefits bt thn wat if it makes u think wat have u done to achieve this kind of lifestyle? The answer wud b "I never struggled hard to gain this".Remember that ur better than those who dnt evn hav the potential whr u stand today!
U hav mentioned that "Who will cry after u die?". The answer for this will be wid those ppl who care for u, who love u, who needs u,who luk forward to u! Its not abt "Society" . Ppl remember wat u r n whr u stand...bt wat they dnt see is the struggle behind it!
I beleive that u the best solution to ur dilemma is wid urself!Ur dear ones unstd u n support u which is all u need! Inspire ppl n simply "B the Merchant of WOW!" Trust me, i wud be one of those who will luk foward to u!
Take gud care of urself!!
God Bless :-)
Babu beautiful post but I have only one thing to say the question is do you wanna give this up?
Hey,
It's good to see you blogging and indeed this was catchy post.
When I look back, I do see myself following a pattern and wherever I stand today may be it's because of that pattern(mantra).
Here's the mantra:
"Do what you want to do in life but before that think if this will make you happy in future. Do not look at the past or present, since past is already gone and present is what you are right now. Instead always think about the future because that's the only thing you can change."
If health is what is bothering you then set a target about your health and make it happen. May be I might see a different Prasoon when I come to India next time.
If it is job then think what is it that will make you happy and will make you want to get out of bed every morning to go to work. It sounds crazy, but trust me you will find something in you that crazy.
If money is what is bothering you then think of an idea work on the it, and sell it. Yes, start a company. You are ought to fail multiple times but atleast you are doing something that makes you happy and proud. And one day you will shine.
HI Prasoon,
Really Nice post yaar..
i thought that you write my feelings in your post.
just wanna say Do what you want to do...and then everything is right automatically.There is only one problem ,you have to keep patience [:)].
Prasoon, I'm so happy to see the best side of your coming out in the form of WORDS :), Tho I've also seen this side of you, but just a touch of it :).
Yaar, I'd say: WRITING ABILITY is ONE GIFT that god gives just to a few, DON'T LET IT GO, Write a BOOK :). Dil nikaal de yaar :). All the best...
"WHATEVER THE MIND CAN CONCEIVE & BELIEVE, IT CAN ACHIEVE." INFACT, THE MIND IS SUCH A POWERFUL INSTRUMENT, IT CAN DELIVER TO YOU LITERALLY EVERYTHING YOU WANT. BUT YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE THAT WHAT YOU WANT IS POSSIBLE :)... YEAH ?? :)
Hmmm ,
Hey pal !! Nicely posted..this dielimma is with every one in this generation.I believe that one must keep fighting ..If, to be said in a lighter sense I would say..
"Life bhi ek picture ki hi taraha hai ..jisme end tak sab thik ho hi jata hai..Aur agar sab kuch thik naa ho to samjho 'PICTURE ABHI BAKI HAI MERE DOST'.
Now hope u understood it.."Anshu"
LIFE ME SIRF WAHI KARNA JISSE TUMHARA DIL KHUSH RAHE...AUR DUNIYA ACHCHIA LAGEY..KYUKI END ME SAB KUCH KHATM HO JAATA HAI...MAGAR...JAATE JAATE..AATMA APNA SAFAR KHUSHI KHUSHI POORA KAR JAATI HAI.....
THE beauty i had lost
or never thought , i ll ever regain
lies in my own soul now
i never imagined
tht i can love my own self
but many hav proved me wrong
i believe the supreme divine
the spiritual me glowing again
a tiara on my head and a wink in eye
wht i never thought was truth in my hands.
kindness tht never grew,now blossoms in me
something brought a sudden change
or its just a changed outlook, my perception?
the heart pumping, knowin i m alive
with gr8 desire i m myself
what i lost, was probably never mine afterall
i dont wanna cry on goings
but smile as the way things approach
a tickling effect and all chuckling
have no idea wht the future has
but clearer ways, no disharmony
what i now believe is in my own dream
aspirations which never came out, now fulfilled
the inner me ready to burst out
the tenderness all alive and now congratulating
no victory, just some wishes getting a grant
i believe, i said..
i believe u,
i believe me n everything within us..
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