Shall I give up???

Hi again....

You people may or may not be surprised after reading this post but i really am tired of being so much fragile everyday with so much struggle for bread and butter and that too on a monthly basis with a limited exposure...

Most of the times i think that i shall give up this struggle and should find some better options in other cities...Two and a half years back i came to this city of dreams to find some better options and so far life (including health) has not been too much supportive...

I always used to think that it was a very good and timely decision to leave Indore, where i was earning a mere 8k a month...But now sometimes, i regret the decision..After losing around 15 kgs and most of my dreams, for which i am responsible enough since i never tried to achieve those big dreams...Never gave myself a chance....And now complaining with my self...

Well..Its not like i am not in a better position from where i have started...A very good job and package with one of the leading MNC Banks....Weekend offs...Supportive family and some very close friends...There are so many things and people to cheer about....There is so much to achieve...

But still i am in a dilemma...Shall I give up this daily struggle...Since its taking on my health....Every day seems to be almost 12 hours long struggle to survive...Every day i ask this question to my self...Why am i earning for???? Just because i have to lead a good life post my marriage and provide every best comfort possible to my wife??? Just because my friends and colleagues are earning more or less than me??? Just because i have to create a social status in the so called "Society"....There are so many things, which remains unanswered....

Who will care after you die??? I guess nobody...There would be 13 days of tears and emotional shock and then life will be back on track...Thats what we are earning and living for?? Who cares even if you are earning 50k a month...Who cares if you have a very good sense of humor????

Yah..M alone...Sitting 1000 miles away from my dear ones...Missing the joy of life...Is money and growth everything for us??? Its been almost 12 years since i am staying away from my family....Yah i miss them...I miss every moment spent with them ...Every second of Care, Every Minute of Affection, Every Hour of Protection and Every Day of Guidance...I miss everything...

Well...Need to think more on my future....And the question remains the same...Shall I give up??

Prasoon

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Date : 22.07.2008
Time : 21.00 PM....

Well...Well..Well...So finally i am here...Writing on my own blog....To share my life, emotions, thoughts and everything else which can help me communicating with all my friends and everybody out there connected with me directly or indirectly...

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Cheers..
Prasoon